There's not a whole lot I can say about today. It had its moments, but more were good than bad. I'm still tired of the heat, and I don't think that's going to change anytime soon.
My therapist gave me new concepts to mull over, so I've done a little of that. Mostly she warned me to pace myself, so I'm trying to do that. I don't pace myself very well. When faced with a mental challenge I just push and push until I collapse or see results. I wish I could be that persistent in physical endeavors.
So, right now I'm thinking about sensorimotor psychotherapy, shame and self-loathing, nervous systems, parasympathetic nervous system to be more specific, and implicit memory. That's a brain-full right now. It's interesting stuff; I just don't know how quickly I can digest it. I did horribly in Biology, so the biological aspects of mental health go right over my head -- haha!
Did you know that shame can be triggered by:
It seems it will come after us no matter where we live. A very unscientific, non-professional take on this is that if, when we were babies and very small children, if our perceived successes, pride, and happiness were not met with support but were rather corrected, looked down upon, scoffed, or punished with some regularity, we learned to associate those things with shame. We were shamed, so those things must be shameful. If we expressed needs as small children and were scolded, the same thing happened. This is true for the entire list.
Crazy, huh? It's bad enough that the bad things in life bring about shame, but now I learn that some of my shame may actually be triggered by my successes. That just hardly seems fair.
I'm sure I will continue to learn about this topic. She told me it's cutting edge in therapy. If working through this can help, I guess I'm for it. It ties in neatly with mindfulness, which is also a big part of DBT, so they should complement each other nicely. Let's hope!
I guess I had more to say than I realized. I usually do.
Purple Pizzazz
My therapist gave me new concepts to mull over, so I've done a little of that. Mostly she warned me to pace myself, so I'm trying to do that. I don't pace myself very well. When faced with a mental challenge I just push and push until I collapse or see results. I wish I could be that persistent in physical endeavors.
So, right now I'm thinking about sensorimotor psychotherapy, shame and self-loathing, nervous systems, parasympathetic nervous system to be more specific, and implicit memory. That's a brain-full right now. It's interesting stuff; I just don't know how quickly I can digest it. I did horribly in Biology, so the biological aspects of mental health go right over my head -- haha!
Did you know that shame can be triggered by:
- Success
- Being Seen
- Self Assertiveness
- Self Care
- Asking for Needs to be Met
- Feeling Proud or Happy
It seems it will come after us no matter where we live. A very unscientific, non-professional take on this is that if, when we were babies and very small children, if our perceived successes, pride, and happiness were not met with support but were rather corrected, looked down upon, scoffed, or punished with some regularity, we learned to associate those things with shame. We were shamed, so those things must be shameful. If we expressed needs as small children and were scolded, the same thing happened. This is true for the entire list.
Crazy, huh? It's bad enough that the bad things in life bring about shame, but now I learn that some of my shame may actually be triggered by my successes. That just hardly seems fair.
I'm sure I will continue to learn about this topic. She told me it's cutting edge in therapy. If working through this can help, I guess I'm for it. It ties in neatly with mindfulness, which is also a big part of DBT, so they should complement each other nicely. Let's hope!
I guess I had more to say than I realized. I usually do.
Purple Pizzazz