It's starting to get hot out. By Saturday we're supposed to be in triple digits, with 105 forecast for Sunday. Then it cools off to 99 next week. I really hate the heat! It's uncomfortable and oppressive. I feel like I can't breathe, and I want to shower about every hour.
When I get hot, I get cranky, and when I get cranky, I don't play well with others. I get angry even more easily. I cry more easily. It just intensifies everything. I am really not looking forward to the next 2 weeks while it's in the upper 90s and into the 100s. Who knows what will come after that. weather.com only goes out 15 days.
I'll be hanging out next to air conditioners as much as possible. I like to be outside, but even the shade in the park will be too hot at these high temperatures.
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When I get hot, I get cranky, and when I get cranky, I don't play well with others. I get angry even more easily. I cry more easily. It just intensifies everything. I am really not looking forward to the next 2 weeks while it's in the upper 90s and into the 100s. Who knows what will come after that. weather.com only goes out 15 days.
I'll be hanging out next to air conditioners as much as possible. I like to be outside, but even the shade in the park will be too hot at these high temperatures.
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I'm reading "I Hate You -- Don't Leave Me" right now. What a great book! It seems every other paragraph speaks to me. I talked to my therapist today about BPD. She's not sure if it's a full-blown diagnosis or just BPD tendencies. Does that make me a borderline borderline (B-BPD)?
I guess it doesn't matter if it's a full-blown diagnosis, or if I just have tendencies, but it also makes it feel a little "less than." Like I'm not quite good enough (or bad enough) to really be something. I just have a lot of tendencies; does that make my bad behavior worse in that I should be able to control it better because I'm just B-BPD? It feels that way. If I'm BPD, there's a medical reason I do the things I do; if I'm not and I'm just acting that way most of the time, I think that makes me a bad person who just behaves badly without any medical reason to explain it.
This was quite a ramble, and I have more to think about now. I'm glad I started this blog because it gives me a place to ramble, and still try to stay somewhat focused on one thing each day.
Purple Pizzazz
This was quite a ramble, and I have more to think about now. I'm glad I started this blog because it gives me a place to ramble, and still try to stay somewhat focused on one thing each day.
Purple Pizzazz